Loss
Loss is:
Painful.
Heartfelt.
Heart-wrenching.
Loss can be:
Dark.
Perspective shaking.
Exquisite in its depth of emotion.
Loss, in no particular order, is often some combination of all of the above.
Stay with it. You might as well make the most of what loss has to teach you.
Losses that you would surely never ask for add precious power to your capabilities. They guide you as a leader, a person, and who you are at your very core.